Who am I?
I am a 34 year old mother of three children. Aged 12, 8 and 4. I have been married twice, divorced once. My first two children came from my first marriage. Once upon a time I wanted to save the whole world. The truth is that I was broken and I thought that if I could save everyone else, maybe I could save myself. I was born to two very emotionally immature individuals, one of whom was diagnosed when I was a child with Borderline Personality Disorder. My father never told me. I was left without guidance on how to handle it and my mother never sought treatment. Then there was his own issues that I had to handle as well. There's not really a word for his issues. It's not some diagnosable disorder that I know of. Just emotionally and mentally immature. I never had any insight into why I was the way I was. So as a child I had this deep seated feeling that I was flawed, broken, like perhaps God had made a mistake in making me. From a young age I was inquisitive. I wanted to know ho